Anna’s Story
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How I Overcame my Fear of Spirits & Discovered my Life Purpose
In the mean time, I had done my finals, passed them and this is me at my graduation. I was so glad it was over, BUT I had worked for three hard years and spent a lot of money on a degree I hadn’t even enjoyed.
Now I was faced with finding a job, using skills I didn’t even want to use. I longed for my carefree life in Spain. But I had to face reality. I had bills to pay and some sort of career to make. My job hunt was a frustrating one. It’s hard to find a job when you’re not living your purpose and there is no passion or enthusiasm shining through.
In the end, after some searching, I fell into the field of teaching and taught French at a University in France. But my real enthusiasm, interests and passion still lay elsewhere – in the Spirit world. At weekends I worked on opening up my psychic abilities and contacting my Spirit Guides.
Life was pushing me further and further towards spirituality, healing and psychic work.
It was while I was in Dijon, France that I found the website of Steve Pavlina, who is a personal development blogger. Steve on his website taught a message of finding your purpose and having a meaningful life doing what you love. I used to spend hours devouring the free articles on his website and became a huge fan of his work. Steve wrote a great deal about making your life congruent with the person you were on the inside. That was an important message for me because I realized that for most of my life, I had been hiding my true self. My outer self was an academically gifted student who was a major people-pleaser as I suppressed any negative emotions to keep other people happy.
My inner self was a bit of a witch, and more spirited than the person I was presenting to the outside world. I was deeply frustrated and discouraged at that time. I knew I really wanted to help other people but after four years of studying and £17,000 of student debt, it seemed that the best way the world thought I could help others was through teaching them English, which frustrated me. I am sure that people do a great job teaching others English but I was longing for something deeper, where I could do healing and remind people of their connection to spirit. So, Steve’s message was encouraging to me but I did not see how I would ever find something that I loved to do.
Through Steve’s website, I found his wife Erin Pavlina’s website. She is a psychic-medium who writes free articles about developing psychic ability.
At that time, I was dying to open up my psychic abilities once again, and I felt that it was part of my path to use them in my work, but I just didn’t dare. I was afraid that if I opened up my third eye once again, I would begin seeing disembodied spirits like the woman I saw when I was six or seven years old.
Erin, through her articles, taught me that there was nothing to fear. She also later confirmed for me, in a psychic reading with her, that I too would be doing intuitive readings for people as part of my life’s work. Little by little I learned how to open up my chakras, and I told my Guides that I was open to developing my psychic abilities, but that they were not allowed to frighten me. I remember walking around in a lot of fear in my own apartment in France that year because I expected to see a spirit jump out at me. That has never happened since that time when I was seven years old and in my experience talking to other psychics, it rarely happens, so my fear was unfounded.
Later on, I was so delighted to get the chance to read for Steve and Erin Pavlina. After all, it was Steve who got me onto the path of doing what I loved, and Erin who encouraged me in opening up my psychic abilities. I am hugely grateful to both Steve and Erin Pavlina for everything they taught me through their writing and I highly recommend you check out their websites.
